Today Esther turned 9. I wish that we were far enough into the process so that we could send her a birthday gift and a cake but we're not. I hope she wasn't expecting that she'd get something like that from us. We are waiting for China to give us approval for her but the process is more complicated for the second child. Soon enough though. I hope that she had a happy birthday and felt loved and happy. I'm sure she is feeling very vulnerable now that she knows she is available for adoption. Sometimes when I look at her images I realize that I'm seeing the faces of her parents. I wonder where they are - who they are. Are they young or old? Do they live in the same city as her? Do they ever pass her on the street? Do they look for their own faces in the faces of the 9 year old girls that walk by? I am sure I am not the only woman in this world who is thinking of her with empty arms on her birthday. We love you Esther. I can't wait until you feel and know that.
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